c a r e F R E E d: future fears

The future. It's constantly on my mind. In few months I'm leaving my home for the past 2 years. How do I prepare? Why do I have so much fear?

Sweet e-mail from a dear friend:
(She should have her own blog, it would be way more interesting than mine)

"I think I have realized that the hardest thing is actually having the freedom to choose. For most of our life, we knew what we were doing year in and year out because we were going to school and college. Now, it is weird having to decide what to do next, and as Christians, try to figure out where the Lord has us and what his plans are for us. I think another revelation I have had is that there might not necessarily be ONE clear-cut thing that I we are supposed to do. I wish there was, because that would be easier. I wish that there would be an obvious life plan ( like nursing or accounting or a family business, or become an heiress of princess of an empire!) where it would be a little more obvious what we would do. I am starting to realize that we just have to do something, anything really, and know that God is not going to abandon us. I think I have felt the pressure of having to decipher, or decode God's plans. I think I am waiting for this magical LOUD voice of the Lord type thing, but that might not come- or at least not in the way I anticipate it. So I am trying to be more trusting of the Lord, and bold to get out there and make some decisions. "

That's what I needed to hear. I can't just wait for a sign from him. I need to just make a move. He'll close (and hopefully open!) the doors for my future. He won't abandon me. He won't love me more or less for whatever decision I choose. I have to continually speak truth to myself.

Like one of my best friends here said tonight- "Praise God we don't have to be in control of the future! All we have to do is stand at his altar!"